OnRepeat: Baby Dollz – My Cookie
CurrentlyCraving: Dole Whip from Disneyland and a trip to Vegas or some Indian Casino to satisfy my gambling itch.
TheMessage: Senior Year = Finish Strong. “The great philosopher Epictetus said, "It's not what happens to you, it's how you react that matters."
FinishStrong. It’s my senior year at UCI. I’m scheduled to graduate and walk Spring 2010. Looking back on my college life/career, a lot of shit happened—some good, a lot of bad—but regardless of all of that, I have one more year left and I want to do it big. I want to LIVE IT UP. I’m not going to have “Senioritis” and just “chill.” I’m going to go all out and not hold back on anything. What do I mean by this? This “Finish Strong” attitude is about choice. Only you have the power to choose how to respond to the challenges before you. So how will you choose to respond? Will you take up a challenge or let it pass you by? In my life, there are several struggles and choices that I have to make. I know that if I say “Yes” to something, I’m saying “No” to something else, so I've weighed my decisions out carefully. I’ve always been the type of person whose word is “good for it.” If I say I’m going to do something, you damn sure can count on me to do it to the best of my ability with no bullshit in between. I don’t believe in half-committing/half-assing something. So what are the choices I’ve made for 2009-2010? I’m clearly just going to list them, as a reminder to me and those of you following my blogg to be true to myself and keep me on check.
- Dean’s list: I want to get on the Dean’s List one more time before I graduate
- Complete UROP/SURP Research Project: I want to present my project flawlessly at the Undergraduate Research Symposium in May and get my proposal published in a journal.
- Complete PS Honors Senior Thesis: I want to write a strong 60-80 page senior thesis and graduate with honors.
- 2 exhibition: Sheroes & Boxcuttuhz—Sheroes practices Mondays (8-12pm) & Saturday Mornings (11-2pm). Cuttuhz practices Mondays (9-11pm) and Saturday Afternoons (2-7pm). I know I’ll be really busy dancing, but I want this and I WILL handle it. I planned out my schedule so that SUNDAYS are, with no exceptions, homework/study day.
- Bartending: I want to balance school, dance, and work. Land a steady bartending job and keep it.
Announcement. After much contemplation,
I’ve decided to audition for CADC. At first I was hesitant because I wasn’t sure if I could
handle it. I wasn’t sure if this is
what I really wanted. Lastly, I was
SCARED. But I realized, I have to
“FINISH STRONG.” I don’t want to look back on my life and wonder “what if?” I rather GO FOR IT and get rejected giving it my all than not trying at all. At least if I give it my all, there won’t be anymore “what ifs” or “regrets” right? After much self-reflection and discussions with several close friends, I decided to do it.

I’m 100% committed to auditioning and I’m really excited for auditions [workshops week 3, audition week 4 CRAWFORD HALL on Monday OCT 19th @ 6:30pm]. I’m usually really shy as a person (good at 1-on-1 conversation, but not BIG groups), until you get to know me, but over this past summer, I’ve grown to love the team. I think every single person on that team is not only sick as fuck as a dancer, but also a genuinely good person that I wouldn’t mind getting lunch with or kicking it with. Of course I’m a little nervous. The last time I auditioned for a team was my freshman year in college [4 years ago!]. So wish me luck =D I’m going to give it my all and I hope that’s good enough.
I know this is something I want (not because people were telling me to). I want to grow as much as I can not only as a dancer, but also as a person and friend. I know if I make the team, DC can teach me A LOT. I have one more year left to dance “competitively” (Lord knows I’m not competing anymore after I graduate. I need to work full-time for 2 years, land that professional internship at Corporate Disney in Burbank, and save for Business Graduate School because my loans won’t be enough to cover my schooling if I go off the bat)and I’ve realized that DC is perfect not only because of it’s location, or the fact that it’s UCI based and I’m a UCI student, but because I know that if I make it on the team, it’s going to the be BEST FUCKING YEAR of my life. I can honestly feel the energy from the team, the love and respect that they share for each other as teammates and family, and I want to be a part of that. I have so much respect for them and hope I get the chance to share the stage with them and dance my heart out on stage for them. Thank God for Becca Kim and Erica Lee—my CADC audition group and DC returners. I’m really excited and happy we’re auditioning together. It’s going to be hella GOOD TIMES.
BeReal. I know there will be people our there cheering me on, those people I really am blessed to have in my life and
thank you for supporting me. On the other hand, I know there will be other people who will be talking mad shit, those people I have no control over, but if you’re reading this I want you to know that
I’m not going to let you phase me. I’m tired of trying to make
YOU happy. This is what I want and like the movie
10 thing I hate about you, I’m not going to make ANYONE make ME feel like I CAN’T have what I WANT. I’m doing this for
ME and if you were really down for me, you’d be a homie, respect that decision, and support it. And if you weren’t a homie to begin with,
stop wasting your energy and time hating on me, spend that energy
elsewhere and do something positive for a change. But if you do continue to hate, I’m just going to develop “tough skin,” and stop worrying so much bout what you say.
I’ma just do ME and be HAPPY that way.FinishStrong. Thanks for reading my blogg. Hope it was somewhat inspirational. I challenge you to always choose to Finish Strong and tell me about it.
I’ll be here cheering you on. Sorry if I’m MIA too for the homies whom I’ve yet to chill with, get lunch/dinner with for 3-4 years. You know how I am.
Just know I never forget about you guys and always appreciate that you're still there.Pray for me & Wish me luck.Hope you are all having better days.& COME SUPPORT SHEROES. TAKE ME & YACKZ CLASS THIS WEDNESDAY!It’s to a JERKIN SONG!! No joke, I’ll teach you how to JERK!!
<3 kimmiko
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